My story about my best friend and our current fight
Assalamualaikum and hi everyone. Today's post might be a little sad. You know when you have a best friend for so long, you feel like they're part of you? like they're your family? Well, I have that friend. I love him like he's my brother. Considering the fact that I don't have any sibling, the love is more apparent for him.
What would you feel if your own best friend turns his back from you? This friend of mine, let's just cal him A, he just forgot me. He is a really popular guy in my school while I'm just a loser. He has many friends. But that does not give him the right to just leave me, right? right? oh, who am i kidding I'm just a pathetic loser why would he not leave me. It's been a month since we talked. Like, wow. Really?
He looks really happy with his friends especially that girl. I'm not jealous. Really. I don't like him nor love him. It's just the feeling of attachment that's making me feel sad. In addition of people talking about him and that girl doesn't make me feel any better too. Is it wrong that I want to talk to my friend? Is it wrong that I am friends with you? Because apparently it is wrong to everyone in this world that I am friends with you. You don't even know what is going on with me right now. I'm a mess! A mess!! That girl that you so highly talk about, that you're so close with. well, I said that she's talking bad about me behind my back to you. But did you even care? no. You didn't do anything. You even looked like you didn't believe me when I told you that.
I'm sad. sad. The guy i used to know is not the guy that i'm seeing right now. You know, if a car would run over you, I would not hesitate to run to you and push you off the road just to save you. but you? you won' even bat n eyelash to me. but whatever right? I should not care. Because I'm a really lucky girl and a happy girl that is always happy. well,that's what people expect me right? a happy girl. I may laugh in front of you, but right now when I am writing this, well technically I'm typing, I'm crying. I don't know why. It's really pathetic. I AM PATHETIC.
Hoping that you'll notice me. that you realize what's going on. that you realize just how much damaged our friendship is. just how much you hurt me. You know, i feel really sad. betrayed, that you don't trust me enough to tell me your problems but you can tell your other new friends especially that girl. do you know what i'm going through? do you know that i'm being talked about in my class? do you know that they make fun of me? and do you know just how insecure i feel everytime i hear them talk about me? how i feel like i just want to go away from this world? no, you don't.
i can't write anymore. i feel tired. with all of this. although i do want to say more. fun fact, here i am crying while typing this but then two minutes after i will just open the door and act normal. well at least to others i act normal. i'm just a really sad and broken person that no one wants to befriend with. that's just me. i just make my friends happy. from now on i'll just shut people out like the characters in wattpad books because it seems better than to let people in and have them f*ck me over don' you think? I have no intention of you finding out about this but if you do, just ignore it. like the rest of them do.
huh.. I told you guys it's an emotional one. Anyway, if you guys read until here, congrats cause you just wasted your time haha. That's it from me. Oh, if you're wondering A's name is actually.. well his first letter is the opposite of what i put.
Love,
liyanina
What would you feel if your own best friend turns his back from you? This friend of mine, let's just cal him A, he just forgot me. He is a really popular guy in my school while I'm just a loser. He has many friends. But that does not give him the right to just leave me, right? right? oh, who am i kidding I'm just a pathetic loser why would he not leave me. It's been a month since we talked. Like, wow. Really?
He looks really happy with his friends especially that girl. I'm not jealous. Really. I don't like him nor love him. It's just the feeling of attachment that's making me feel sad. In addition of people talking about him and that girl doesn't make me feel any better too. Is it wrong that I want to talk to my friend? Is it wrong that I am friends with you? Because apparently it is wrong to everyone in this world that I am friends with you. You don't even know what is going on with me right now. I'm a mess! A mess!! That girl that you so highly talk about, that you're so close with. well, I said that she's talking bad about me behind my back to you. But did you even care? no. You didn't do anything. You even looked like you didn't believe me when I told you that.
I'm sad. sad. The guy i used to know is not the guy that i'm seeing right now. You know, if a car would run over you, I would not hesitate to run to you and push you off the road just to save you. but you? you won' even bat n eyelash to me. but whatever right? I should not care. Because I'm a really lucky girl and a happy girl that is always happy. well,that's what people expect me right? a happy girl. I may laugh in front of you, but right now when I am writing this, well technically I'm typing, I'm crying. I don't know why. It's really pathetic. I AM PATHETIC.
Hoping that you'll notice me. that you realize what's going on. that you realize just how much damaged our friendship is. just how much you hurt me. You know, i feel really sad. betrayed, that you don't trust me enough to tell me your problems but you can tell your other new friends especially that girl. do you know what i'm going through? do you know that i'm being talked about in my class? do you know that they make fun of me? and do you know just how insecure i feel everytime i hear them talk about me? how i feel like i just want to go away from this world? no, you don't.
i can't write anymore. i feel tired. with all of this. although i do want to say more. fun fact, here i am crying while typing this but then two minutes after i will just open the door and act normal. well at least to others i act normal. i'm just a really sad and broken person that no one wants to befriend with. that's just me. i just make my friends happy. from now on i'll just shut people out like the characters in wattpad books because it seems better than to let people in and have them f*ck me over don' you think? I have no intention of you finding out about this but if you do, just ignore it. like the rest of them do.
huh.. I told you guys it's an emotional one. Anyway, if you guys read until here, congrats cause you just wasted your time haha. That's it from me. Oh, if you're wondering A's name is actually.. well his first letter is the opposite of what i put.
Love,
liyanina
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