An emotional wreck
Hey guys! It's me again.
Well would you look at that. What an interesting title we have today. Before I start talking about the topic, I just want to thank my friend, Bell (you know who you are) , for giving me a chance and actually read my blog. I'm so happy! I was SO nervous when I told her about my blog. Well, no one from my real life knows about this blog so it was kind of scary to wait for her reaction. She was so sweet, telling me her thoughts about my story (which I appreciate very much, thank you honey) and giving me some tips too! So again. thank you Bell. I love you.
Okay now we can get to the topic. Well, what about the topic. I don't know.. it's just... do you guys sometimes have this day or even sometimes it's just for a few minutes where you suddenly feel like your heart hurts so much, your head is full with things you don't even know and you just feel all kinds of feeling, everything and anything. No? Just me? Okay then....
I just wanted to let that out of my head I guess. It's been bothering me a lot of times. Like, I was watching a movie or just scrolling Instagram and suddenly my heart does this weird feeling and I don't know what to feel, I don't know what I feel. So usually, I find myself a really sad movie for me to cry by myself. I'm so confused with myself. I relate to this sentence so much sometimes : "Sometimes I watch my life like I'm viewing a movie". This sentence is from one of the fan fiction on Instagram that I read before, I feel like I am another person. But it is me. Somehow, I don't feel connected to myself. Like I'm not me.
Anyway, enough about that. My head is all over the place right now. I have a question for you random readers that don't know me ; can you guess my name? Oh, and because my dear friend read my story for the first time.. I want to put another one on here. That's another thing about me. I have so many ideas inside my head. So many things to write. but then, when I go to write something, I blank out. Nothing comes out of my mind. Sometimes, I know what I want to write but I don't have the words to put in. It's like the scene is in my head but that's all there is. Sometimes I wish I cam just transfer what I think into words by itself haha. One other thing is I don't know how to continue my story so if you're waiting for a next chapter from any of my story, I'm sorry to disappoint. I'm a bad writer, I know. Enough with the rambling. Here it is. Another snippet of my story. Enjoy :))
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Well would you look at that. What an interesting title we have today. Before I start talking about the topic, I just want to thank my friend, Bell (you know who you are) , for giving me a chance and actually read my blog. I'm so happy! I was SO nervous when I told her about my blog. Well, no one from my real life knows about this blog so it was kind of scary to wait for her reaction. She was so sweet, telling me her thoughts about my story (which I appreciate very much, thank you honey) and giving me some tips too! So again. thank you Bell. I love you.
Okay now we can get to the topic. Well, what about the topic. I don't know.. it's just... do you guys sometimes have this day or even sometimes it's just for a few minutes where you suddenly feel like your heart hurts so much, your head is full with things you don't even know and you just feel all kinds of feeling, everything and anything. No? Just me? Okay then....
I just wanted to let that out of my head I guess. It's been bothering me a lot of times. Like, I was watching a movie or just scrolling Instagram and suddenly my heart does this weird feeling and I don't know what to feel, I don't know what I feel. So usually, I find myself a really sad movie for me to cry by myself. I'm so confused with myself. I relate to this sentence so much sometimes : "Sometimes I watch my life like I'm viewing a movie". This sentence is from one of the fan fiction on Instagram that I read before, I feel like I am another person. But it is me. Somehow, I don't feel connected to myself. Like I'm not me.
Anyway, enough about that. My head is all over the place right now. I have a question for you random readers that don't know me ; can you guess my name? Oh, and because my dear friend read my story for the first time.. I want to put another one on here. That's another thing about me. I have so many ideas inside my head. So many things to write. but then, when I go to write something, I blank out. Nothing comes out of my mind. Sometimes, I know what I want to write but I don't have the words to put in. It's like the scene is in my head but that's all there is. Sometimes I wish I cam just transfer what I think into words by itself haha. One other thing is I don't know how to continue my story so if you're waiting for a next chapter from any of my story, I'm sorry to disappoint. I'm a bad writer, I know. Enough with the rambling. Here it is. Another snippet of my story. Enjoy :))
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“I know you Amber. And I know you’re not fine. How could you be fine when I’m like this? I’m sick! I don’t know how you can stand being with me. I can’t even stand myself , Am.”
“Please don’t say that Z. I love you. You know it.”
“I know that you love me. And I don’t doubt it. But why would you torture yourself by being with me?”
“Because , Z , when you love someone, you don’t just leave them when they’re sick. You stand by them and you hold their hand, telling them that it’s going to be alright” even though you know it’s not, Amber continued her sentence in her heart , scared that it will make Zach even more sad.
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That's it! That's all i can give you, sorry. So, this is the end of another entry of my blog. I'm going to watch a sad movie after this. Remember that there are people that love you and care for you, and that you're worth something. I love you with all the love in the world, and that's a lot of love (if you know where this is from, I love you so much).
Love,
Nina
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