Insecurites

Hi everyone. It's me again. I'm feeling very sad right now. All my life, I've been on the overwight side. I know that, I'm aware of that and I tried to change myself for the better. However, whenever my family talks about my weight, I instantly feel bad about myself.

Words like "You're so fat. You would look better if you're slim" , "Oh, you gained weight" , "Please try to slim down yourself" , and "You will look more beautiful when you're slim" makes my heart shatter AND make me want to stop what I'm doing. Those words are actually discouraging me and I just really, really hate them. I don't know what to do.

Sometimes, I just feel like I want to give up on life. Honestly, I think that would be better, wouldn't it? Life makes me so tired... I often find myself sad. Among my friends, I would be the happy one but when I'm alone, these thoughts just keep coming back to me.

Anyway, to those who have insecurities ( I mean, I think almost everyone have them) ,  you're doing good, just keep up what you're doing now because you're perfect in your own way.

Sorry for the rant everyone. I love you.

Love,
 Nina

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